Having alot of mixed feelings now...

My sister will be getting married this coming friday. I am very happy for her to find a good husband. Douglas is a really great guy. He cares for his friends, family and of cos my sister very much. He's the best friend to hang out with for ktv and drinks. He also can be the best brother who listens and gives u advice.

But...

Suddenly, I feel like I'm losing my only sibling... I've been sharing a room with my sister for the past 25yrs. We even share the same bed up until today. She dotes on me very much. Although she can be rather naggy at times. When we were younger, we were not very close as our age gap is rather huge. She is 7yrs my senior. Therefore, we were always in different stages of life. By the time i start going into primary school, she have already graduated and went on to secondary. And when i went into secondary, she was already in poly. We didnt have much to talk about when we were younger. I would always complained about her being able to come home later the me and she would always think im a little gal whom i really was.

We only started to hang out more often during my poly times. After working for a few yrs, she went on to quit her job and took up a full time degree. That's when we started to have common topics on school. We used to bring out the mahjong table and put it in the living room during exam times. We would both study together throughout the night with the tv playing our favourite movie, Pretty woman. Before the arrival of the lunar new year, we would both go down to bugis junction to hunt for new clothes and then bring our parents along the following weekend to buy all our new clothes together.

Actually, we should also thank Douglas for bringing us even closer to each other. Douglas also likes singing and therefore we started going to ktv and singing competitions together. With these, we hung out even more often. And after knowing the KTV gang, we hang out at least twice a week for either movies or ktvs.

After moving into our new place, my cousins came to live with us. Almost everynite, we would ask our younger cousin to buy macdonalds supper. We even became crazy once when we stayed up until 4am just to enjoy macdonalds breakfast. And during days where all of us were home for dinner, we would play mahjong with mom and dad.

Months ago, I was still rather excited about her wedding. We have been running around to make arrangements for her wedding. Planning the wedding banquets, and planning the songs for her march in and also preparing to sing for her wedding. Its not until yesterday, while i was cropping her march in song, that I started to feel rather emotional. It suddenly hit me that she will be moving into another phase of her life and also moving out of this house. I will be having the room to myself which should be a happy thing. But, somehow i feel rather lonely realising that I will be the only one watching the tv and sleeping on queen sized bed.

But anyhow, I still hope her wedding day will be smooth and fun. I still look forward to the fun I will be having on the wedding day.

I sincerely wish my sis and my future bro-in-law a blissful marriage.